走一趟永远不会被人遗忘

I went to Baguio over the weekend and boy, it was like a time warp.

Well. At least I got to be back in Baguio, this time with family. It was just a mere overnight trip for me since I have work today. Oh, and I must commend the cutie Uber driver, Bryan, who picked me up last night from Cubao terminal. I really had a pleasant ride chatting with him, although he's straight. Also for the Uber driver I got this morning, Uber Glenn, we chatted the whole trip to work., and as it turn out he's a Baguio person, so he had a lot of insights about Baguio. He's straight too... but the way he looks straight to my eyes makes me want to think otherwise. :P

Anyway...

I'd like to take on Baguio once again. As suggested by Uber Glenn, I should try backpacking Banawe - Sagada - Baguio, then if I still can, finish the leg with La Union for a surf.

Well, it's a very tempting proposition. I shall work on an itinerary on that. A personal project for this summer. :)

March in the Sun

All those days in the sun
What I'd give to relive just one
Undo what's done
And bring back the light

Nay or Yay:: Your take on cheating.

Listening to Boys' Night Out last February 17th, their topic of discussion: Cheating.

I didn't take down minutes of the discussion, but some points raised that quite hit a mark - spot on:

1. Once a cheater, always a cheater.
2. Either you're a cheater, or a changing man. So which are you?
3. Lying coincides with cheating - one cannot exist without the other.
4. Facebook, (or any social media platform) is the root of cheating.
5. How much can one forgive a cheating partner?
6. When a cheater realize how much he will lose, it can change him.

What's your take on any of the mentioned items?

Kakto

P: "You seem to be blooming lately. So... who's the guy?"  

VS: "Blooming? Ako? Guy who?"  

P: "Sinong dinedate mo ngayon at blooming ka?"  

VS: "I'm not dating anyone, and hindi pa kaya."   

P: "Ah... pero in fairness blooming ka laetely."  

VS: "Blooming sa tag-tuyot? Hmmm... that's rare. Pero I think I know what you mean. Lately I do feel lighter, may kakaibang indayog sa mga hakbang ko; napapangiti ng mga pinakamaliliit na bagay... May natatanging kilig na matagal ko nang di nadarama."  

P: "Waw... pero walang nagpapakilig sa 'yo?"  

VS: "Wala nga e... I mean walang actively nagpapakilig or anything. Tagtuyot nga."  

P: "Blooming sa tagtuyot."  

VS: "Exactly. Parang isang cactus."  

P: "Amazing..." 

VS: *clears throat. In an old man's voice* "A flower that blooms in adversity is the most rare and beautiful of all."  

P: "Asus... Pero pag nasobrahan ng dilig, nalalanta." 

VS: *stares for a moment* 

... 

VS: "Cactus nga talaga." 

The Closest Encounters with the EX.

A random chatter yesterday...

N: "Nakita ko si ex mo sa Aura one time... bakit parang ang lamya na nya?"

VS: "What do you mean malamya? "

N: "Pagirl." 

VS: "I doubt that. Bihis babae?" 

N: "Hindi naman, but his demeanor changed. The last time I saw him with you, he's like 90% guy, lalaking laki at hindi aakalaing gay. But when I saw him he's too pa-girl, 30-70, 30% na lang pagkalalaki." 

VS: "I'd still doubt that. Perhaps the last time you saw us together you only saw the timid side of him. He's like that especially when he's around strangers. But I've seen him when he's with family and his closest friends, he does get a bit uhm, loud and goofy. But not pa-girl." 

N: "You need not be defensive you know? Ex mo na siya, remember?

It's not being defensive... or is it? Hmm....
Prior to this I also got word from an old friend who works in the same company with my ex. Apparently he's popular...

VS: "... you work at [company] pala. By any chance you work with [ex's full name]? 

M: "Yung bading?" 

VS: "'bading'?" 

M: "Sabi ng mga officemates ko bading daw yun. Bakit kaanu-ano mo ba yun?" 

VS: "Have you met him?" 

M: "Hindi, e magkaiba kami department. Pero nakikita ko siya. Ang ingay nya e. 

VS:"Palabiro kasi yun."   

M: "Basta naiingayan ako sa kanya. Bakit mo pala natanong?"

Then I just had to segue and change the course of discussion. This old friend of mine doesn't know my sexual preference and that I dated guys. She looks up to me as a kuya. But to be honest bothered ako. Parang hindi ko na kilala ang ex ko. O sadyang malaki na nagbago sa kanya since we parted ways?

The other night I had a dream and he was in it. We were in a car, not his, and this time he was in the passenger seat. I was driving. In that dream we were having a banter...

VS: "So kumusta ka naman since we 'parted ways'?  

J: "Parted ways? Diba tinaboy mo ko, remember?   

VS: "Ako nantaboy? I remember ikaw yung last nantaboy. 

J: "Basta may nantaboy." 

VS: "Well, so how did we end up talking right now." 

J: "Ewan ko sayo." 

*At this point I realized I was dreaming. Yes, m subconscious speaks in my dreams apart from the dream Me* 

VS: "Well it's not like we're getting back together you huh?" 

J:" Sheesh..." 

VS:"Ang yabang! Haha... But that is a funny thought. Funny in the sense na it wouldn't be a good idea." 

J:"Ewan ko sayo!" 

VS:" Well at least we're talking, Sungit." 

J: *stares for awhile then looks out of the window*

End of dream sequence. Lately I've been wanting to make random conversations with him by text, just to know how has he been doing. But I guess it wouldn't be a good time yet. I don't' even know if there will be any time at all.

Time to break the silence

It's comforting to receive such comments. It's been awhile since somebody checked on me like this. Though it's a simple gesture, it's a good icebreaker... especially when you feel buried in a ton of ice cold desertment.

So going back to the query... I honestly don't know how to answer this. How am I? In terms of what exactly? How have I been doing?

Survey - Relationships

Took this from Jeki's blog. It'll be a first for us (team effort) to answer a questionnaire. So here goes...

Random post#1

Just awhile ago...

Me:*gigil mode*
Jj: "BAKIT MO BA KO PINANGGIGIGILAN?!?"
Me: "Ayaw mo? Buti nga ikaw pinanggigigilan ko eh!
Sige, hanap na lang ako ng iba."
Jj: "Sige subukan mo, ihampas ko sa mukha mo laptop mo!"

S&M na ba to?
Hindi ko alam bakit ang bayolente ng boyfriend ko. :|

Lost in Translation

"Do you love me?"

Why are you asking me this?

"I just need to know. Do you love me?"

What do you need to know?

"I just want to ask, and I just want to hear you say it."

Are you seriously asking me, or are you making a statement?

I wouldn't dare ask you that, or anyone for that matter. Why are you asking me this? 

You're basically telling me "I don't feel loved" with that question.

Have I not make you feel my love?

How could I love someone who questions my love for him?
From my end, I've given more than a could muster... yet it never suffice.
So tell me now, how could I love you, when it seems that I don't know how to love at all?

Clingy Diaries: His Words Sealed the Box of Sanity

Le boyfie always thinks he's not good with words, but he underestimates himself.

Clingy Diaries: His Words Seared Through the Box of Sanity

With an idle mind, a lonesome mood, a clingy person gets irrational and overly sensitive to his surroundings.

Right Answers

While I was at work, being up for about 26 hours, with a few stolen winks in between. Being at work for this month has been a breeze so far. We usually chat about random stuff over lunch. Our seniors - considred as alpha female, pry on our group's personal lives.

"May girlfriend ka?"

Hypothetical Questions

One November evening, while waiting for our food to be served, she suddenly asked,

"Okay lang ba sayo kung friends pa rin kami with Jjampong kahit na break na kayo?"

Me: Bakit naman hindi? I mean, you've been hangging out with him pretty much.

She: Okay...wala lang...natanong ko lang, hypothetical lang.

I looked straight to her eye and said,

Eh kung break nga kami, tatakwil nyo ba ko for him kung ako may sala?

Hoity-Toity

On a hot April noon, I was out having lunch with a dear friend of mine. It's been a long while since we've spent time together, talked about our life happenings. Then she asked, "How are you Victor?" and I replied with a smile. 

VS: I'm currently seeing someone. We've been dating for the past weeks now.

CC: Oh, that's nice. Showbiz?

VS: Nope, nonshowbiz. But graduated from the same university. He's younger than me though. 

CC: *Stares in query*

VS: What? He's just a year younger! :P 

CC: It's not that... I just realized you haven't been in kilig since M. 

VS: Oh... 

 Oo nga ano... wala nga.

 CC:It's just that, I haven't seen you in kilig lately. Wala kang kinakikiligan since M.

That had me thinking... I cannot even remember the kilig I had with M. The moments I had kilig, other than over a guy, were over CC's freshly baked choco-walnut cookies, cinnamon roll from Baguio, and... hm, no more. 

I miss the kilig, but I'm not craving it. It will come naturally, and I hope it does. Currently, someone's giving me more than kilig ;)

A Bowl of Hot Soup and A Warm Hug :: LQ epsiode 1

Apparently RD is not willing to share some tonight.

On Fucking Labels :: How You Hold Me Draws Me Closer (Wrap Up)

... Satisfied na ako na fucking friends tayo. Ayoko ng long courtship.

Gusto mo ba ako maging boyfriend?

VS: Hmm, No. 

RD: Oh, okay.

and just like that, I wrapped up a DTR (define the relationship).

*foreheadpalmslap*

PS

I'll make kwento about it. i think i need to hear some comments, or a view from different perspectives. Anyone?

There's the word, and there's the meaning. Then there's the context.

I'm no expert with the language, I do commit grammatical errors. But I do find something wrong with how he utilized the word "palpable", hence the initiating query. To be objective, here's a brief background on the twat. (Kindly disregard the "online status". I'm not seriously looking for any.)

If you've noticed, I did check a dictionary. So, here's how our short conversation went:

oh and if you do have access to PR you'd get to see his current headline,which read as follows:

am i just lonely or am i just naturally horny? hahaha 

I didn't really understand what just happened.

Busy lang talaga ako.

19. G 13. May. 2012 - 18:26 Ah malapit pa rin. I can visit you there. Kaibigan pwede ko bang malaman number mo?

20. VS 13. May. 2012 - 18:27 093* ** ***** work phone ko ito, don't expect me to reply on time pag nasa work ako. i usually check my phone at the end of the day for personal matters.

21. G 13. May. 2012 - 18:30 work phone? Sad. Sige huwag na lang.

22. G 13. May. 2012 - 18:55 Sana hindi na kita minesaje pa

23. VS 13. May. 2012 - 19:13 it's my personal phone too. pero i got it basically for work. busy lang talaga ako.

24. VS 13. May. 2012 - 19:13 ?

25. G 13. May. 2012 - 19:15 How can we meet kung ganiyan ka naman. Hayst.

26. VS 13. May. 2012 - 21:22 anong ganito? ano ba pagkakaintindi mo sa work phone? you're overreacting.

27. G 13. May. 2012 - 21:23 Sabi ko paano tayo magkikita kung hindi ka naman nagloload syempre kailangan natin ng pantext

28. VS 13. May. 2012 - 21:24 ? who says i don't load? i just said na i'd be too busy to reply to not so urgent messages. You put my words out of context.

29. G 13. May. 2012 - 21:26 You can't blame me we have different perception and I perceive your text differently why? You're indirect.

30. VS 13. May. 2012 - 21:46 you got poor insight.

31. G 13. May. 2012 - 21:48 Ouch.. Poor insight. Wow. Personal attack. AKO NA MAY POOR INSIGHT. AKO NA BOBO. Anong klase kang tao para magsalita sa akin ng ganiyan. WE ARE CALLED PERSON COZ' WE DO HAVE DIFFERENT PERSONALITY. I hope you got it.

32. VS 13. May. 2012 - 21:56 case in point.

33. G 13. May. 2012 - 21:57 Don't worry this would be my last message. Thank you for being NOT A GOOD PERSON.

Back to December

I think it's my blog's anniversary soon. Oh, I 've been very busy lately with work, the vicious cycle of reports, exams, and lack of sleep. Last night, i almost missed dinner if it weren't for a housemate who invited me to eat... and it was only then i realized that I've been continuously working on my seat for the past 5 hours. Parang robot lang talaga, di man lang nakaramdam ng gutom.

So basically this entry is an update.

Something happened last week... let's call it an epiphany. Or better yet, a calling. 

I went to confession.