Lose It All

What started out to be a random rant about not being able to move on, turned into a summation of the year that passed. It's quite early for a year-ender, but this post basically sums up 2017 for me. Just had to look for a soundtrack other than Ellie Goulding's Still Falling for You.

V - 02

It's on the television; you see those red decors hanged up in the mall; your colleagues talk about their dinner plans this coming Friday.

Yes, it's Valentines day. A celebration of love, a salute to Eros, a feast exclusively for two, a milestone between couples. Well, people usually come up with grand schemes of confession of love for another; or take this opportune time to take a lover's hand and propose for marriage. 'Tis the season of aroused emotions, at their peak of passion. 

Valentines day.

Hm... oh wait, what do I have for Friday?

Quality Time

Taking advantage of the holiday, we spent the night together. At past midnight, he picked me up from work and we checked ourselves in for 12 hours of high quality time. 

He always remind me I'm the type who's hard to please (mataas daw standards ko and expectations). But with him, I'm completely in contentment. He's my happiness, in its pure essence - my joy. He gives me pleasure in so many levels (and yes, I mean in sooo many levels, and positions. haha!)

Though we started a little rough, one may even call it booty calls, things turned out unexpectedly. For one, he's never dated a guy before. Second he didn't think he'd engage in a homosexual relationship; he's not even  turned on by just any stud. But each moment we spent together, summates our existence, and forges a bond. Eventually, he grows in to you, and you in him. Multiply that by how much time you spend together, who could blame you for falling for each other. And that we did.

Hihi. 

(Malanding hagikgik lang to lite things up.)

By the way, I've taken a mile step in my life. I told my mom about me and Jjampong - kung paano ko ginawa, at ano kinahinatnan, kwento ko na lang sa next post. We're already checking out of the hotel. hehe...tama na overtime. :P

Weekend!

I wish to enjoy this weekend. Definitely, kakain ako! haha! Wala muna shopping, sa pagkain ko na muna ilalaan ang moolah :D

Pasta ang kinasasabikan ko all this time! Tsaka sushi! YUM!!!

They say that our food cravings actually correspond to a particular mood. Like for example, pasta. Sex daw ang tunay na ibig sabihin nyan. Well, kung iisipin, pwede. Carbs in general is craved by people with huge appetite, those who require immediate source of energy. These people are also observed to be engaged in activities that require more of endurance rather than strength.

You can google it yourself, just key in "food cravings mood" and find yourself a good read. Medyo tinatamad ako magsulat. Also, I need to prepare now - going out for dinner with friends. Ciao!

"What will you be going to New York for?"

A pop question, totally sidetracked from discussion, as she firmly taps my shoulder.

"For a vacation?" I blurted out as I was snatched away from my daydream.

"To get married!"

The snide remark caught me off guard. Her as well. People were already snickering. She then saves herself with apologies and "I didn't mean that you -" and "Not that I was implying -". But it was just a little too late.

What I should have said:
Oh! Pardon me madam, but I don't have plans of getting married to the same sex... and I don't believe in such marriages. Sorry to disappoint you.

Sheer Boredom

I'm out of town for the weekend and I got a call from a guy I haven't met this morning. Small talk nung una. Off daw nya at wala magawa. Alam mo kung ano idea nya para pamatay bagot? Makitambay raw kasama ako. Nasa Katipunan,QC siya. Ako naman ay nasa province, a good 2 hour drive up north. Willing siyang bumiyahe (I'm assuming he has a ride) for two hours at makitambay dito sa province with me. 

Dapat ko bang pinaunlakan ung imbitasyon nya?

Ang weird lang kasi. Dati, bigla siya magtetext kalaliman ng gabi, magyayaya na kumain or kaya puntahan siya sa bahay niya. 12midnight magimbita ka ng estranghero sa pamamahay mo?

I just don't buy it. 

"Good morning Love"

I woke up this morning, without opening my eyes, and gave you a tight hug on your side. Apparently you've been sitting beside me reading a book, you ran your ringers through my hair in response to my hug. I let out a deep sigh, which sounded more like a grunt, and you put down your book and brushed my cheeks with your now free hand.


Good sleep?


Yeah... how long have you been up?


Almost an hour now.


Please come back to sleep with me.


You lay down beside me and snuggled closer to me, as I wrap myself in your embrace. My nose brushing your defined neck, I took a deep breath, taking in all of your scent with one inspiration...

Then I open my eyes.

...

Time to change this pillowcase.

Grateful for being busy.

...would appreciate more if I can now enjoy my summer break. please!

I've got stuff going on that keeps me preoccupied from gayness. In a way it's a good thing, especially since I'm being super single.


Oh! except for this yummy guy this afternoon in the coffee shop who kept spreading his legs, doing a spread eagle sort of thing right across my table. He seems straight enough, and yummy as an ice cream in the summer heat. Buti na lang busy ako sa readings ko that I managed not to stare at his exposed thighs (and a little effort and I swear I would have seen this eagle's treasured nest).

Oh and another thing, learned a term from my (girl)friend today. The word for today is:

UNDERSTANDING

I don't really know its etymology, but it refers to the ideal attributes of a guy according to my (girl)friend's gay friend. "Ang tipo kong lalaki ay yung understanding." and by that he meant the size of his dick. I think the proper pronunciation would be : UN-der//STAAAN-ding. Yeah, a significant pause right after the second syllable, and a prolonged third syllable (better with a wink at the end of the word).

With that said, apparently, the eagle seem understanding enough.