14 March 2016

Admission

For some unthinkable reason, I miss Jjampong more than ever. But not the yearning type of missing. I just plainly miss him. Everyday for the past weeks, despite the stuff I'm dealing with, he'd slide in to thought. Even when there were days that I don't consciously remember him, there's that feeling that I have drained myself thinking of him. I did dream of him once this month but a very faint and vague one at that, the type you'd forget the moment you wake up.

Unthinkable I say, for we had no contact since...well, the break up, and it's been more than a year ago. He did reply to my birthday greeting last August, a brief "Thanks.". No word since then until someone notified me he's off to another country for a short business trip; to which I couldn't help myself but text him a farewell. I'm completely on a social media block out, as I figured since he blocked me from Facebook.  Not a single trace of him, even through common friends - I guess they're doing us a favor or some sort.

I miss him, I just do. I can't deny that. I'm simply acknowledging that.

Besides that... there's one thing that's worth to be acknowledged. Surprising as it seems, as it caught me off-guard. I blurted it out to myself, not too loud for anyone to hear...




"Given another chance, I'd fight for your love. No letting go this time...never."

5 comments:

Pepe v2.0 said...

I don't know much of your story (have to backread hehe) but this admission is a very good start to welcoming new stories.

Simon said...

This is hard. I had those moments during the few months I was not with Cheng. For your case however its different since you guys had no contact for over a year. :( Im sensing that the galaxy is trying to tell you something haha

Victor Saudad said...

I don't know about the galaxy Simon...
I've cried out to Luna, from the deepest of my heart
This longing, is unthinkable.

Simon said...

Eventually something better would come for you :) Baka nasa sagada yung true love mo :)

Victor Saudad said...

...and here i am thinking,
"Nagpunta kaya Sagada si Jjampong?"



*sigh*