Once Upon a Dream

I dreamed of you on a Thursday, one May dawn. I was on duty, on a graveyard shift.

The Closest Encounters with the EX.

A random chatter yesterday...

N: "Nakita ko si ex mo sa Aura one time... bakit parang ang lamya na nya?"

VS: "What do you mean malamya? "

N: "Pagirl." 

VS: "I doubt that. Bihis babae?" 

N: "Hindi naman, but his demeanor changed. The last time I saw him with you, he's like 90% guy, lalaking laki at hindi aakalaing gay. But when I saw him he's too pa-girl, 30-70, 30% na lang pagkalalaki." 

VS: "I'd still doubt that. Perhaps the last time you saw us together you only saw the timid side of him. He's like that especially when he's around strangers. But I've seen him when he's with family and his closest friends, he does get a bit uhm, loud and goofy. But not pa-girl." 

N: "You need not be defensive you know? Ex mo na siya, remember?

It's not being defensive... or is it? Hmm....
Prior to this I also got word from an old friend who works in the same company with my ex. Apparently he's popular...

VS: "... you work at [company] pala. By any chance you work with [ex's full name]? 

M: "Yung bading?" 

VS: "'bading'?" 

M: "Sabi ng mga officemates ko bading daw yun. Bakit kaanu-ano mo ba yun?" 

VS: "Have you met him?" 

M: "Hindi, e magkaiba kami department. Pero nakikita ko siya. Ang ingay nya e. 

VS:"Palabiro kasi yun."   

M: "Basta naiingayan ako sa kanya. Bakit mo pala natanong?"

Then I just had to segue and change the course of discussion. This old friend of mine doesn't know my sexual preference and that I dated guys. She looks up to me as a kuya. But to be honest bothered ako. Parang hindi ko na kilala ang ex ko. O sadyang malaki na nagbago sa kanya since we parted ways?

The other night I had a dream and he was in it. We were in a car, not his, and this time he was in the passenger seat. I was driving. In that dream we were having a banter...

VS: "So kumusta ka naman since we 'parted ways'?  

J: "Parted ways? Diba tinaboy mo ko, remember?   

VS: "Ako nantaboy? I remember ikaw yung last nantaboy. 

J: "Basta may nantaboy." 

VS: "Well, so how did we end up talking right now." 

J: "Ewan ko sayo." 

*At this point I realized I was dreaming. Yes, m subconscious speaks in my dreams apart from the dream Me* 

VS: "Well it's not like we're getting back together you huh?" 

J:" Sheesh..." 

VS:"Ang yabang! Haha... But that is a funny thought. Funny in the sense na it wouldn't be a good idea." 

J:"Ewan ko sayo!" 

VS:" Well at least we're talking, Sungit." 

J: *stares for awhile then looks out of the window*

End of dream sequence. Lately I've been wanting to make random conversations with him by text, just to know how has he been doing. But I guess it wouldn't be a good time yet. I don't' even know if there will be any time at all.

Intimacy, a Yearning

Playing in my head for a few days now...
This is the sound of intimacy. The feeling and mood this music gives me, that's how I'd like it to be when I'm making out with my guy...

the touch of his warm hands, 
the smooth caress of his lips, 
the strong embrace and pressing firm body...

All of these and more, that would make me sink deeper in his arms...

sigh...


This music shall play on cue, whenever that blissful moment arise.

Hudyat [Postscript]

somehow, that was the feeling of having you in my dream. 


Makes me wonder though...do you really even think of me?

Hudyat

Dahil late na at pagod na ako, at low bat na rin ang laptop... I'll make this brief. Wala na munang dramatics or poetics...

You know what they say about feces in dreams...

I had a dream the other night. I was taking a dump. A huuuge, long dump. It was so real that I woke up just to check if I actually did crap in my pyjamas. Clean pjs. Whew~! 


And I went back to sleep with a hopeful grin on my face.
$_$ *kaching*!

I was once told that when you dream of feces, it symbolizes money. Never did it crossed my mind to validate this idea through research until now. As it turns out, feces may actually represent:

• a negative aspect that one dislikes or resents, especially if it is your own feces. An expulsion of filth and unwanted dirt.
• It may also pertain to someone who is anal retentive.  
• Or to see it from a medical standpoint, the body might simply telling you that there's a problem in the colon.

After doing my quick search, I think I'd settle with the medical perspective (the morning after I did take a huge dump). But it's nice to think of it as a lucky omen for wealth.

*kachingkaching*!