October 19, 2009

A dinner for two, of pastas and Italian cuisine. It's not simply for the love of pastas, but also because you were a vegetarian. Challenging kang ka-date kasi di ka mahatak sa mga burger shops at steak house. Konsensya ko pa na french fries lang kakainin mo sa Mcdo. Plus, it had to be somewhere fancy... it's a celebration of our 2nd month of being together.

Cubao X was the place... it was a quiet evening. We only had dinner because we started the date late. Nobody's at fault, it was the availability we had. Besides, I was too tired to go around or enjoy a movie. We went back to your place and decided to just watch some film or series on your laptop. It's good that we had the room to ourselves, and that your roomies were already off to vacation.

On that evening we made love. It was that same evening I felt the love for you.

Today, it's been exactly two years since that night I felt that love.

Guess what?

I still do.

Truth

I woke up this morning with you in my mind. Not exactly how and why, but you were the first thing on my mind, right next to the first light.

"I love you."

It's been two years already, and still I wake up to a morning like this. No amount of sadness, nor drop of bitterness - it's the truth. I love you. But we've parted ways, you turned your back on me, I had to push myself away from you. You didn't want me after all.

 I was happy with you as you told me you were happy with me. But in the end, you professed "that I was never happy to begin with". You left me, broken hearted. I love you, unfortunately you couldn't reciprocate. You took my heart and left it in the cold. You took my sight and left me blind in the dark.

You took away Truth - the only thing I hold on to. The Truth I've treasured since the beginning of life, snatched away in seconds.

Two years. How long shall it take for Truth to be back in my arms?

Hudyat [Postscript]

somehow, that was the feeling of having you in my dream. 


Makes me wonder though...do you really even think of me?