Recuperate

Debilitating

I just spent the past 40 minutes in the office thinking about what to write here.
Well, sadly that's a lie. It has been almost an hour now, of me badgering myself, of questions revolving around Jjampong.

Like,
Why are you still thinking about him?
Why are you still talking about him?
Why are you still hung up on him?
Why would you even consider getting back with him?
Why would you think he'd want to get back with you?
Why wouldn't he hate you?
Why are you still punishing yourself?
Why would he even care?
...

It's crappy and cheesy as hell for the answer I have for all of those. Yet, the question still remains:

Why do you still love him?

For every Jjampong-question, I only have one answer.

I love him.

Unfortunately... this means nothing right now. Nada. 

Uma Pitada de Sol e um Vislumbre de Esperança

During my Marinduque getaway, a lot has been settled in my mind after spending a whole day doing nothing. Taking a few laps in the open waters, sipping freshly concocted mojitos, and sitting by the shore....aaaah, a clean break from all my worries.

"You have to allow a certain amount of time in which you are doing nothing in order to have things occur to you, to let your mind think" - Mortimer Adler

Mid Year Status

Quick rundown of what I've been up to the past couple of weeks:

• Basically back-to-back work, no play, for 3 straight months. Average sleeping time 3-5 hours. 6 if I'm lucky.
• Series marathon (watched mostly while at work. so much for "no play" :P). This time covered mostly Asian series: Addicted/Heroin Season1 (Chinese), Love Sick Season 1&2 (Thai), Descendants of the Sun (Korean), Oh My Ghostess (Korean).
• Had an awesome vacation over the Labor day weekend, a break from the city hustle. Scenic island hoping in Marinduque. 
• Spending time with dear old friends, and meeting new ones along the trip has always been a blessing. Cheers to good times! 
• Cheers to drunken folly for knocking some sense in to my head. What else was bound to happen when you're sharing a round of beers and mojito with a freshly broken heart, and another who's was still hung up on past love? 

Going to a far off island and spending a whole day doing nothing, make you see things on a better perspective. 

PS. continuation of this post deserved it's own entry.

sōlārī

If you would just hold me
keep me in your arms,
keep my troubled heart still
shelter my lost soul
cuddle my fears
calm my worries
soothe this unhurt pain
Just, hold me, please
keep my troubled heart
in your arms
where I always find
solace