17 September 2013

"Galit Ka Ba?"

My mom kept silent for the next three days. We weren't seeing much of each other since I was busy and mostly at work. She doesn't join us during dinner - either she's deaf focused on the tv or locked up in her bedroom. She barely glances to my direction. In the morning I still kiss her goodbye as I leave, without a single breath.

Three days of deafening silence. I had to break it sooner or later.

I got home past dinner time but just in time for the teleseryes. She's settled in the sala, with eyes fixed on the tv. I smoothly sat myself beside her looking straight at her with my pleading beady eyes, and asked her in the most carressing tone I've ever mustered...
"Galit ka ba?"
Forgetting that she was my mother, and thinking she was throwing a simple mother's tantrum; I should have just slit my throat. As if a needle dropped on the floor with a reverberating ting that stole her attention from the tv screen. Slowly turning her head, led by her darting eyes, she finally looked at me after three days. At that moment, when our eyes met, deep in my subconscious I knew I was in for trouble.

...to be continued.


odin hood said...

aw that's tough...

i think wala na ako maging problem coming out to my mom, more or less alam na rin niya, so di naman na siya siguro ma-shock. Sa dad ko lang di ko sure, but at least 1/2 na lang problem ko.

if ako nasa position mo now ako pa siguro ang may tantrums instead na yung nanay. but then again im not sure what type of relationship you have with your mom.

i think you should be less worried if she's mad at you. she's a mother, she's probably mad at herself. malamang iniisip niya san ba siya nagkulang or san siya nagkamali...

i-post mo na ang karugtong ng story! :D

gillboard said...

just give her time to heal... di ka rin naman matitiis nun.